frontal lobers

tired.

putting my feet to work is so tiring. 13 hours of duty with no pay is such a pain. but anyway, i'm rooting for experience. i hope time flies fast and it will be january real soon. what i am happy about is that i learn a lot of things. i just don't know when will be the time that i'll be able to be efficient and not be such a nuisance. sometimes, i think that using 'i am a neophyte' as an excuse is being such a cliche already. i feel intimidated at the rate that fellow older volunteers perform. it's really hard when you're struggling as a newbie. but somewhow i hope, i have improved.

ryuusei no kizuna episode five.

less comedy and more bits and clues about the murder. i am very eager to know the real deal about the mystery. but somehow i am missing the cosplays and swindling. i am being indulged int his series more and more. good thing is the next two fridays, i am not scheduled for graveyard shifts. yay! ill still be able to stream it live.

NEWS's color

(which contrary to the album title, their album jacket's pictures where showing dull and serious black and mysterious fit in it. NO RAINBOWS.)

why would i even give an effort of writing my opinions when i haven't even listened to it carefully. but i have played ryo's solo - ordinary - twice already. it felt like something to be heard as an insert song for an anime. and right now i am hearing yamapi's english song. the bits of english words from gomen ne juliet has now transformed into an entire song... surprisingly, i can understand his enunciations and words (everybody feeling kinda naughty... free me tonight) MOLA is the title of this song, which i do not f*cking know what means or what's the story about it and the first thing that comes to my mind is totoy mola. (wait OMG is that 'booties' i just heard. LOLLLLL). anyways, i have nothing else to say as i still need time for this songs to grow in me. and nobody cares about my review anyway. LOLLL.

'i am a sadist.' -ampule

i still can't create a ryo-(post)-birthday post (the hell with me.) for now, because the computer is infected with malignancy again, for the 8656267517670 times. so i promise i'll create one as soon as i have a well-groomed pc and mecha time.

okay. for now. let's stick to my stories.

one: the hate that dear ampule directs to me

i have a life now. (yay!). i volunteered as an RN at a secondary hospital near our subdivision. it's like a 'welcome-to-the-real-life-of-a-staff-RN-party'. this is something real now. not that duty days during college were fraud, but more of something that you have to do decision making on your own now. the staff at the hospital are very accommodating and nice. even the doctors give their share of jokes and smiles. i'm still striving though to what things i should do during shifts. damn, it's so hard to be a neophyte. and ampules are giving me a hard time. why can't it just break without making my fingers bleed. you'll have your day ampule. hah.

two: his chest, his chest

there is a good-looking doctor in the hospital. he is also a new doctor there so he just came in like a 'woah'. i mean he's good looking in my opinion (and so as what other staff says). but i don't know his name. it's too hard to remember and pronounce. so i'll just call him Dr. R.O.D. and his chest? nah, nevermind. i would rather not say something about it.

three: of IV, plain NSS and backflow

today, nov. 7, 2008 is by far the most tiring duty i ever had my whole life. we had 10 admissions. i was running from third floor up down, then up again, then down again. my feet barely survived this day. until now, when i step my feet, my heels are screaming in pain. it's such a tiring day, but a very fulfilling one. i hope i'd be able to improve my skills. that's my big dream.

four: four, episode four

i love ryusei no kizuna, and i can't can't can't get enough of it. and i've realized what i love most from this dorama. it's the very warm relationship of the siblings. i even like the little koichi, taisuke and shizuna. they're so adorable.
i watched tonight's episode at a very very reliable live streaming link (which i don't know what its name is) and there was no buffering. it's like watching it in our very own tv. i really laugh out loud loud loud loud louder loudest at thug taisuke. because ryo as a hiphop, blingbling, 'yo my man' thug IS DEFINITELY SOMETHING TO LAUGH ABOUT. ("N-A-O. nao-chan, yeahhhh") (wait a minute, the scrub suit i wore today looked like hiphop on me, imo, because it's very loose. LOL. blingbling taisuke premonition.) and my most loved scene was when taisuke & shii were walking along the seawall (i am not sure what the exact term for that particular structure is) while shi was like pushing her tai-nee and they were laughing at their aniki. aww that sibling bond is mucho love.

five: no, not yet enough

otanjoubi omedetou ryo-chan!!

gomen ryo, but still aishiteru ♥ ♥ ♥

I F*CKING MISSED A RYO-BIRTHDAY POST!!!!!!!!!

what a stupid stupid failure!!!

damn. i feel such a failure. and up to this day, i still haven't created anything. fail fail fail.

gomen ryo-chan. demo, daisuki til eien.

but anyway, i still managed to greet him through heart (wtf) at exactly 12 midnight (japan time) of november 3rd.

i'll do a birthday post when i have a longer day off.

yes, day off.

omedetou to me because i have a life now. gleeee!!!

i do volunteer work for a hospital near our subdivision. and my first day started on ryo's birthday. anyway, i can't go into details now because my mind is still preoccupied with a dream i had this morning! that was probably the greatest dream i had up until this day of my life!! (and it also adds up that it is only during rare circumstances that i am able to remember my dream when i wake up. LOL).

life updates next time.

for now..

umareta koto deaeta koto

ima soba ni ireru koto arigatou

RYO-CHAN happy birthday

ichinen ni ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi