tragic coincidences?

what has happened to me?

i just came from a 4-day community immersion (where i had a chance to have an 8-hour sleep. wow.) and i am so sick right now. i just need to lay down my thoughts about some things. no, not japanese things..

well. when i first heard about this news from a classmate my first thought was.. "oh, gossips.." then that night, though i needed to leave the house at 5 am, i really had to search for this news. and then truth came. and i was late (this probably describes how much attention i give to japan fandom, that i forget all other things i adored before it), because it was about 2 months ago. anyways, what's done is done. the kid disregarded safe sex and created a sperm and ovum meeting. fertilization at age 19. teenage pregnancy. we can't escape from pre-marital sex lines.

no. i'm not affected. truthfully.

term it right. i'm bothered. they're young, real young. and if you'll look at an ouside perspective into their lives, they have so much more that life can offer as youth. sobrang nakakapanghinayang. then now, they need to tick married for civil status, they stay in one bed at night, they wake up in the wee hours of the morning becuase of their daughter's cry. though they wouldn't admit it, they're restrained. starting the day they said thier vows, their tied.

do i sound bitter? haha

um. probably the right answer is "sort of". no, not because i used to stalk jai (honestly, i like klaire for jai), but because, they are blessed with so many things in life (i probably can't enumerate all) and it seems like with the action they did, they threw away opportunities that would require them as being single. and everybody can say A LOT OF OPPORTUNITIES that is. they seem to be happy though. so who am i to judge?

all i can do is wish them luck. (well, they're rich so, it wouldn't bother them if the price of milk increases).

and i forgot to say.. their daughter's birthday is the same as mine. wow.