muzukashi

right now, the only adjective appropriate to word my feeling is 'confused'..

'will i or will i not?'

i need an answer badly.

but actually, i already have an answer and it's an 'i will'. i'm just too occupied thinking that i would be lucky and be chosen and push through all that. but yes i know, i have very slim chances of being chosen.. so i'll just pass an application, at least to give it a try.



this is nonsense, so nonsense..