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yapi bassdei!

2011-11-03T19:25:00.000+09:00

After 2 years, I am reviving this blog for my dearest Ryo-chan's birthday!

Happy 27th birthday Ryo!

I bet you'll have non-stop drinking and partying tonight!

I wish you happiness

and please gain weight. :)

But of course, you will forever be my only bias. ♥

i am epi-ed

2009-11-13T16:40:00.003+09:00

well hello there blogging!

first, i owe someone a greeting:

to the osaka guy i adore for years now, i know i am uber late but,

お誕生日おめでとう, 錦戸亮

my wishes for you are: healthy life. gain weight. prosperous work. (and a love, like hina).
i am sorry that i have not done anything to celebrate your birthday.
i will always remain your fan though.

second, YAY DAY OFF!!!!
oh God, graveyard shift just consumes my whole day. when i am not in work, i am sleeping at home. just sleeping. glad that i have about 3 hours allotted for doramas and net.

third, i am less-inspired again. awww.

fourth, i just realized how there used to be a lot of people dropping by our house back then. what has happened now? seems like everybody found new houses for hang out.

fifth, they busted my birthday plans. DAMN. i am totally annoyed at the fact that my birthday plans are sabotaged because of their desires. i was supposed to have a day off on my birthday but they planned a swimming party, that if you will not attend, you must go to work, even if it's your day off. HOW CRUEL IS THAT?!!

sixth, in one and a half month of hospital work, five breathings has passed by my hands. 5 heartbeats not recovered by epinephrine. i hope there won't be more. crying loved ones are not worth the experience you want to have.

half-liter of tears

2009-11-12T10:43:00.002+09:00

if there is 1 liter of tears, SMILE would best be dubbed as half-liter of tears.

i came all the way from night shift and i wanted to finish the last episode i have not watched and i made the best move of watching it before sleeping.
i was crying effortlessly. most especially in the vito-hana conversation.

the whole drama was very burdensome for the heart, in a manner that it can make the viewer sympathize with Vito and feel really really sad on how unfortunate things in his life went. i know it's a fictional drama, but you can't help but think that since they did make a script out of it, that there's a probability it is happening somewhere in the world.
it also served as an eye-opener of how discrimination rolls in Japan. probably it affected me a lot since i am a Filipino.

anyway, i will probably manage to write a something with more sense, after i accumulate sleep.
so for now, i'm off to bed since it's already 10 am.

oyasumi.

code

2009-11-02T19:51:00.002+09:00

This is the best part of the emo-filled CODE video.

aw ryo, you should smile more. ♥♥♥

me is resurrecting

2009-10-29T18:44:00.005+09:00

rotting.

this blog is rotting.

well now i'm resurrecting.

. i'm one busy body. hospital duties again. yep, after 8 months of bumming around, i'm doing hospital duties again, though still no pay involved. i have graveyard shift for one whole month and another this coming november. both feeling accomplished and learning each day. happy to serve.

. officially, i can tell that i have very minimal interest about JE, japan fandom and ryo. sad but true. i still check my lj though and skim through recent posts and news.

. i watched Orthros no Inu, but it didn't really grab hold of my interest. i still did finish it. ryo looks gorgeous. AND THIN. and i glee with ryo and asami scenes. haha

BUT

. i felt so happy with the latest pap shots of Hina and Erika Toda! YAY!!! i like them. so cute together..

. i have been addicted to Doctor Who!!! OMG DAVID TENNANT!!! haha. i am no sci-fi fan, but Doctor Who made me wander off a new road. what i love most about this series is the story of each episode. plus, david tennant is ONE GREAT ACTOR! i should've discovered it earlier. release the geek in me!

i can't wait for the last specials of the tenth doctor. darn, david tennant is so good, i wouldn't want him to regenerate into the eleventh docotr. but anyway, i hope i can still stick with watching this series.

i like this, but second only to leather jackets

2009-09-03T22:01:00.004+09:00

a body like this should recover soon,
or fans will go amok missing a day of his jweb.

you should do this more yamapi.
this pic was sooo long ago, but this is my coping mechanism.
no, i won't go amok.

oops yamapi, you missed a page from your "The Great Jweb Collection",
so get well soon.

picture snagged from lj users: oomontyoo & pornvilai

flu attacks je

2009-09-01T22:59:00.004+09:00

ryo is down with flu!
and so is yamapi..

that is shit.
so shit.

yay for ryopi!
boo for influenza..

ryo desperately needs rest, so this is probably a blessing in disguise. oh ryo..

*prays for their recovery*

so want this!

2009-08-17T16:36:00.004+09:00

i want this ambulance for my country!

OMG so for the win!

this is rather weird because i didn't post anything about Orthros no Inu aside from this ambulance. LOL

clapping and knives...

2009-08-12T00:42:00.013+09:00

what's with me and my fondness over highschool boys and violence in jmovies?

no idea.

i'd call this film the sidekick uprising. (but it's actually, Aoi Haru)

rooftops. epic. and will forever be.

... while hanging in rooftop sidebars.

because...

and whoever missed holding on the railings leaves the gang...
and the earth.

love calls: nose pinching. (awesome)

i definitely love this shot.

after clapping hands with death, they plant flowers. sweet ne?

and ask about life plans ahead...

and dreams..

and legendary questions...

a bleeding door. only in japan.

eita and his young obsessions..

an obligatory takashi tsukamoto picture.

she was waiting for just one boy.

one wave..

and 8 more...

oh. boys.

yes, obligation as well. just because i love him. takaoka sousuke.

very casual.

another sousuke takaoka. because i cannot resist.

me too.

flowers are meant to bloom not to dry up.

i can never put down my respect for japan's choice of movie themes.
because highschool boys and highschool turfs and gangs can never be categorized in the 'basic' level.
you say toilet cubicle vandalizing? japan says entire building walls graffitti.
you say smoking in male's toilet? japan says murder.
you see, when you're just thinking about it and they are raising it another level.

but what i like most about this boys+ highschool-themed movies is the minimal verbal communication.
aside from giving you a chance to digest things, it allows you to ponder. because there's always something in between those lines.

boys-highschool- movie. never fails to amuse me.
because despite the violence, they show little appreciative hearts.
behind silence there are sakura leaves.

raining yellow

2009-08-03T18:48:00.003+09:00

i am one with my nation in grieving for a great loss.
i have always looked at her as a strong mother.
and she will always be remembered as such, not only by me,
but by the whole country, and the future generation.

no please, i will stick with jabwara

2009-07-31T00:47:00.003+09:00

please, i refuse to submit myself to the catchy tunes that is kpop.

i will settle for kdramas and kmovies, but i do not want to be entangled in kpop business (ok, except girls generation. probably)

i admit i am not as attracted to the glittery and sparkly japan fandom world, as i was a year ago, but i'm trying hard to keep a dose of jdorama now and then.
and i am trying hard (and praying) that i won't switch gear towards kpop. especially now that there are korean songs in our local music channel countdown. absurd. (yes, hello wondergirls and 2ne1.)

i suck being a ryo fangirl because i am not as interested as before. and i still do not want to fly away from this fandom. yes.

wat?

2009-07-26T03:54:00.003+09:00

i watched the first episode of orthros no inu and my problem was that i only understood 2% of the conversations for the whole episode. so i do not know how i should react.

i'll try to point some memorable things.

a raining scene with ryo's crotch in focus. WTF. it lands in first because it's too damn memorable.
why did i see L of deathnote in takizawa?
asami is soooo purty.
ryo's walk doesn't change. LOL

I didn't undestand the whole episode so my reactions are definitely shitty.

i shouldn't have written this.

Hän on komea

2009-07-16T23:26:00.006+09:00

disturbing

the hair. yummy.

undoubtedly annoyed

hilarious

definition of gorgeous.

i don't know what i am busy about that i do not blog in here. i guess i can be called 'somewhat busy' now. which is nice.

bloody faces once more

2009-07-01T03:54:00.004+09:00

yes!! finally!!!!

lame things first:

i loved the first one a little bit more. i was more moved, i mean, appalled by it. plus, the story of the first one, in my opinion, was more established than the second.
failure for miura haruma's role. it was just like a cameo for him. no bloody face. not much interaction.

on the other side of the coin:

i realized i loved the guy playing izaki.
comedic scenes: giant darts, genji lighted his enemy's cigar, oguri shun is funny.
aww, genji's love for yakuza daddy.
i can't help but see jay contreras of kamikaze in taiga narumi, the leader of housen.
nonstop brawls and blooded hot japanese guys.
yes ofcourse, kuroki meisa should showcase her dancing and singing prowess. (this girl is hot)

since miura haruma didn't even have a blot of blood, i am guessing there's part 3.

green green grass of love

2009-06-26T00:00:00.002+09:00

i'm sorry, i can't help it.

oh fun times.

♥ OTP, indeed, ♥

2009-06-21T22:58:00.005+09:00

imagine me squealing. just screaming. and spazzing.

forgive me please. i will be unreasonable and unbearable. this is my ultimate OTP.

hmm, something in common. kansai. lol. and please ryo, be a little bit more assertive.

i can't wait. i can't wait. i can't wait. i can't wait!!!!

otp, oh dream come true.

2009-06-13T00:55:00.005+09:00

YES. YESSSS. YESSSSSS.. OHHH YESSSSSS!!!!

RYO- ASAMI (and TACKEY)

OH MY GOD, THANK YOU!!

and now, i can't wait for long.
this is killing me. please july, come as fast as you can.

Orthros no Inu.. i can't wait!

this way or this way?

2009-06-06T21:51:00.004+09:00

ryo lead role: awwww.
and instead of caring for a sick love interest, he's the ill-fated one. this is gonna make my tear glands active again.

july is just a month away as well. and toycon is next week. i'm so exited for a lot of things.

and

i'm confused with a lot of things.

right now, i'm right at the edge of a crossroad. it's hard to weigh which path to take. please give me relevant signs. i beg.

producer omae mou de..

2009-05-27T02:54:00.005+09:00

whoopsie daisy!! i feel great that i came across this realization!!

no further intro.

BECAUSE YAMANOBE-SAN....

YES, PRODUCER YAMANOBE KENGO-SAN...

IS...

THE SENSEI FROM 1 litre of tears..

with the infamous haruto confrontation: "omae mou de..." ["and you as well..." (ok, that was just my OWN translation..)]

HAHAHAHAHAHA..

okay.. that was over random. wtf.

thanks to the Phil tv showing of 1LoT, i stumbled upon this nice trivia. LOLLLLL

the quiz show to exploit your insanity

2009-05-23T03:52:00.002+09:00

i've finally found my "most what-the-f*ck-jdorama award " receiver.
it DEFINITELY goes to The Quiz Show.

i cannot even express how amazingly good and amazingly wtf it is.
i mean, NO WORDS. seriously.
it will never let your interest slip at any point.
seeing it is believing. and i mean that.

there is a twist of course, but it's not even the main dish.
and the main dish will still be overpowered by dessert.
and i am not making sense, i know. because it is better to be seen than be spoiled.

woah and wow.

come on, watch it...

but of course, be prepared...
because japan uses sunflowers to promote a (hidden) darker outlook in life.

(i swear, japan should really learn to appreciate the beauty in the world and refrain from twisting human morals.)

the sky is gelatin and the cloud is red

2009-05-22T01:44:00.002+09:00

i am pimping my new lj.

erythrocloud

it's because i've had enough of TOO MUCH jap. i needed something personal. plus, my friends page is already speaking japanese. uh, too much japan. but i am really bad at disclosing, so it will probably remain empty. AGAIN.

gelatinsky still exists and i still check it regularly. though i've lost thousand miles of interest over JE fandom, i still linger. LOL. i float..

i cannot see anything reasonable with bella swan. damn. i award her as my most hated fictional character from a book. sorry, no offense, but gawd, i spent a full twenty minutes cussing and cursing her. which i realized, was not worth the time. BUT, really, the character just made me feel extreme anger. why is she like that?
oh anyway, i'll try to spare her even a infinitesimal atom because i still have breaking dawn to finish.
and i am so glad my anger didn't reach my dreams last night. dang.

please japan, appreciate the colorful flowers all around the world..

2009-05-16T00:11:00.003+09:00

errr... House season ender is mmm.. sort of a torn thing. of course i'm happy about cameron and chase but equally down at what happened to House. this ender is not as good as previous seasons though.. but i still think september is too long for a wait until season 6. aw.

and for the big news..

yay for new ryo drama!!

and yay for takizawa! haha.. he's alive! (well i've actually seen him in last week's SC, but i still feel like i haven't seen him much in jdoramas)

i can smell fanfics coming my friends page. TaRyo or RyoTa, doesn't sound good at all. ew. and what's good is that it will be airing in july. which is only about a month and a half to go. unlike those previous dramas where i needed to wait for soooo long.

the drama theme is dark again. what is happening to japan? they really love making people look at the world all torn, gloomy and tormented. i am just hoping that since ryo is casted as the 'good one', they'll stick to this till the end. and not make him turn into sousuke halfway through. but if he has his 'deadly hands' (literally), i doubt he'll be all goody-goody guy.

and for the record.. what is wrong with johnny? (or mary?) (or whoever?) no more bubblegum, guy-next-door roles for his boys huh? ryo as sousuke the dv, ohno as evil lawyer naruse , yoko as psychotic producer honma and now here's takizawa all greedy and with killing probabilities.. haha

the jimusho is probably affected by global crisis (and japan's promotion of psychotic world damnation)... LOL

julio & tenoch one more time

2009-05-11T00:52:00.002+09:00

it's just that i love these guys:

i am happy about this interview that i read from our local paper:

Gael Garcia Bernal on his Pinoy co-stars.

benign

2009-05-07T02:11:00.007+09:00

where have i been?

i have no idea.

my internet connection has magically transformed from slow to suuuuuper slow. that is why i've cut some download of jdoramas and i'm currently watching nothing. i didn't want to download on weekly basis and wait till subbing teams release their subs, so i've decided to download dramas after the season is over. BUT IN REALITY, it's simply because for some unknown retarded reason the slow connection is one big bullcrap, that i don't want to mess my days with. damnit.

i've started a few of the season's dramas though. like Smile, The Quiz Show and God Hand Teru.
Smile, ofcourse, is must-watch for me, because it deals with discrimination of Filipinos (Vito was even half, what more for those full-blooded filipinos out there?) I will establish my reactions and reserve it later.

i've only watched the first episode of The Quiz Show and Yoko is exuding psychotic hotness, i would say. i would definitely finish this show. but watching it made me curious of season one. so i've watched until episode 8 of it. if i only had the resources (and nothing of a shitty slowwwwww connection) i would've finished season one in one-sitting. it is effing awesome. twisted, psychological dramas would really get my full attention. except that i have not finished the series and i so want to finish it badly. soon. the MC in season 1 was a great actor, i hope sho wouldn't fail on this part. this is what i fear for the season two, there's an awesome season 1 that people might compare with.

God hand teru, on the other hand has Mikio doing surgical operations half-naked.
actually, i would like to correct my self... not only half-naked...

this show leaves me ambivalent as whether to laugh or be amazed. i mean, palm marks in the chest, 'heart attacks' prior to 'owning' the 'god hands' and unbuttoning of polo to feel the 'god hand', yeah... weird and funny it is. though, clumsy teru is effortless to commit a funny mistake. nice.

and also, asami is just too pretty that i cannot give up on this series. she is so beautiful, that when she is focused i cannot help but utter: "damn, she's gorgeous.."

rainbow report 03: the eito series (2nd part)

2009-04-25T01:48:00.013+09:00

this is just too badass, not to give time to screencap.

among the three newly released videos of Kanjani8, this won as my favorite. Big time. and it's all thanks to this:maru with a gun. i cannot wish for more.

yes this is soooo late, and i even thought i would go back to normal blogging and forgetting to screencap the YOU CAN SEE video of maru and hina. but when i rewatched the video, i just cannot neglect it. damn. IT'S TOO BADASS. because maru as a yakuza cannot be taken for granted. haha.

racoon coat. nice. more badass points. hurrah

and hina is just too sexy in this video.

with petals. with falling petals. OMG.. it cannot be overrated.
because it's falling to maru.

in slow motion. uber slow motion.

slowly falling petals. RED. WHITE. we cannot ask for more.
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oh maru.

badass stand. badass coat. badass location.

and a badass wink.
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with badass props. too much badass is bad. ah.

it cannot get more brutally hardcore without weapons.

(why am i suddenly singing fatboy slim's the weapon of choice?)

SWORDS. NICE.

AND GUN. NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

LOL.
oh i ♥ maru.
you badass.

after the weapons we shall have uh..

umbrellas. whut?

polka dot umbrella for you maru, because polka dot is badass.
badass in all the sense of the word.

everything in this video is in slooooooowww moooootttiiiioooonnn.

and we have to witness gravity with pouring liquids.
aw.

from falling petals to rising.
gravity. gravity. gravity?

this video is too much awesome all over.

maru says he cannot end it without a final badass glance.

and a final tough pose:

i had no idea why his face was blurred.but i was answered with this:

oh well, i hope maru doesn't get tired.

rainbow report 03: the eito series

2009-04-12T03:26:00.021+09:00

OMG!! GENIUS!!!

I STILL CAN'T RESTRAIN MYSELF FROM SLAPPING MY FACE!!

WOAH!!

thankful for today..

of course, for Jesus' resurrection
and
THE GLORIOUS PV.

thanks to vendi, i am enjoying this day double time! (thank you vendi, i can't thank you much)

wow.

and after watching the newly released puzzle PVs of kanjani8 (i am also happier because the videos hasn't reached the friends page of LJ yet! i'm slightly advance before everyone else), i am SCREENCAPPING!

THIS VIDEO IS WORTH CAPPING FIRST THAN NewS PV of koi no ABO

because it is a fucking english song. SANG ENTIRELY IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE.

what else can beat that? DAMN.

banzai EITO!!!
BANZAI JOHNNY!

(is jin's lovejuice sort of to be blamed for the trend of english songs in JE?)

this video is full of i-miss-you-and-i-need-you (for the love of fanservice) expressions and gestures.

it's burning into flame the romanticist in me.

thank you God for giving the world Jesus,
and next to that for giving me nishikido ryo. and of course kanjani8!

ON WITH THE CAPS!

this is the Glorious, the collab song of tacchon, baru and ryo.

the video starts with 3 guys in state of weary, unhappy, lonely faces.
(i can feel the overflowing emo-ness of this. HAHA)shibutani subaru

nishikido ryo, asleep in bed. nice.

ohkura deflecting 'loneliness' through making coffee.

this is a hand for coffee. for coffee. oh no, how come only coffee?

and yes of course, ryo's arms, and different body parts to follow... LOL.

like the neck and chin and adam's apple

and the face, yes... the 'sleeping' face. damn.

'behold thy majesty, king of rude tongue and perversion has awaken.'

baru prior to doing the guitar. literally. no read-between-the-lines instructions..

i am more of a short-haired baru fan, but the face is smoother than mine. geez.

oh thy majesty has awaken. to get into business of grieving for the 'glorious (whoever she is) lady'

oh crap, wrong clothes. why the pants ryo?

thirst. nice.

and now he's doing the guitar.

welcome to coffee minutes with ohkura tadayoshi

if there ain't no rainbow, then there should be rain.

pouring rain = thinking of you = feeling even lonelier.
(the rain is so overrated)

i have to cap an opening of mouth, to justify that they do sing/lipsynch the english song

ah! he holds the ketchup bottle... is he doing the bottle this time?

yes.. for cooking. uh, cooking. blah..

ohkura mingling with the ancestors of ipod.

i have to cap the face because it's just too pretty.

ryo: hello gorgeous! you still look hot and sexy. ready to dominate the world, right?

YES. PHONE. PHONE. YYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

HAHAHAHA. APPLE. as sinful as it has been.

RYO + PHONE. MORE PHONES. AND THAT FACE.
YYYIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

and NOW that's what we're talking. tacchon and ball.
tacchon playing with ball. geeeezzzuusss..
(drop the perversion, it's easter.)

combo meal for easter sunday: the man, the phone, the lip-biting and narcissism.

uh, the lips. uh. sjkgrcfjnhmzl;js

the twist: the three of them are in just one house. they just woke up from an exceptional...
sleep.
nah. that's just me. no gheito scenes. pure english and weary hearts. blah..

listening to them makes my stomach churn. that's because i'm hungry now, it's 2 am, and easter sunday. nice.

i will cap kicyu and you can see soon. this is too much presento for easter sunday.. nice.

50php yamapi cellphone cover...

2009-04-11T01:39:00.004+09:00

i'm writing because i'm overly annoyed by the 'chaos' everybody is creating because of the airing of jdoramas in local tv.

nicely done, fangirls! *with all sarcasm in the world intended*

everybody's saying:

"OMG. they're airing nobuta/prodai/1 liter in gma7.. i do not want this!"

"i am selfish, and i don't want their hotness to be known by other girls."

OH CUT THE CRAP.

seriously.

and what makes me more pissed is they're posting it on an international community. IT IS NOT THE WHOLE-WORLD-OF-FANDOM'S CONCERN! and your comments just make you look like selfish bitches!

the more you post it on news_jpop, which is an international community, and the more you post comments like that, the more you make Filipino fans look like selfish elitists. please. let us be calm and composed. LOL

grow mature please. stop bashing other fangirls and despising these tv stations because of your immature wisdom.

have i said mature? LIKE M-A-T-U-R-E?

and believe me, somehow before you even 'entered' this fandom, there are also fangirls who did not want you to dive into this fandom, but they never posted anything like that. there are fangirls who have been fangirling way before you and i started, and nobody caused such 'drama'. once, we were all neophytes. once, we were selfish. learn to live with it. learn to accept that exposure will be overrated and then deal with it.

you don't own JE. and you can never make GMA withdraw from airing these shows, as if your disgust and angsty comments will make them back off..

on the contrary, those who are favoring the dramas being shown locally, in hope of exposure = more fans = chance of JE groups visiting the Philippines, are very very very optimistic people!! face reality, there is only a very very slim chance of them coming here, because they are freaking expensive artists.. have you ever thought about that?

original concert price in japan is 7000 yen, which is equivalent to 3500 pesos. and i doubt that we will have the same price when they come here. so each concert ticket would probably be around 5000 pesos. it's too risky for that particular company to fund a JE group to have a concert in manila. the country is composed of 7,107. fans are not only based in manila, they are all over the philippines. they have no guarantee that all tickets will be sold.

but then again, have faith, miracles do happen. haha

and i am a coward because i'm writing this here instead of lj.

obit notes

2009-04-08T02:37:00.007+09:00

if you happen to pass by this blog and

you watch House MD;
you haven't watched the last episode (season 5, episode 20 - aired april 6, 2009 in the US);
and you DO NOT want spoilers...

THEN DON'T READ FURTHER.

i am dumbfounded.
and grieving.

surprise! surprise. production staff of House surely knows how to surprise its viewers.
and this is a fucking, myocardial infarction-inducing kind of shock.
kutner is off House for good, and he bade goodbye with a suicide - sudden and unknown of cause.
it was ultimately saddening because kutner's presence in House's team is sort of a resort - dr. cool, friend of everybody, idiotic smile painted on the face. he was least likely a character you would think to shoot himself in the temple. but he did.

i didn't really know previous spoilers for the show and the talk about someone leaving and dying. but what's so fucking absurd is my facebook's news feed home page, where a non-spoiler House video entitled: Watch the video tribute remembering Dr. Lawrence Kutner from House and Add the Kutner Memorial Badge to you Facebook page and more is posted. that's where i first learned about this episode's twist. AND me, who is stupid, and who is 'accidentally' tracking on spoilers rather than avoiding it, visited House's wiki, and that's where i initially read that he worked his way out through suicide. so i downloaded it immediately, but everything's still so freaking shocking.

reaction.reation.

it was very surprising, thinking that he just solved leptospirosis last episode, he just saved taub's ass and disregarded credit. truthfully though, since i've seen the april fool's video of house days ago, and kutner wasn't there, and in the 19th episode he lied to house, i was thinking "is he getting fired and leaving the show?" i was oddly going to that conclusion. but he didn't die in that episode.

goosebumps. all over me. when foreman and 13 are trying to save him, all hairs in my skin are standing. it feels unreal.
then denial. (omg, not kubler-ross again!)

me: "this can't be true! they're still going to save him! this is just a dream. this is not happening for real.."

the next scene after they were at his apartment, the team was discussing it, and they used verbs like 'died'.

me: "oh fuck, he really died."

but there was still a string of hope in me that this isn't true. until the last scene - his funeral.
and there i realized

"he is dead."

and i was crying, crying and crying non-stop. like losing someone for real. plus, the playing song - just makes you cry even more. i guess i'm really, very attached to this show.

i am not angered by this very bold step the production did. i have always known that in every episode, every season, they do insane and unexpected things. and this is why i love this show. it never fails to make you speechless. with the script, the twists, the medicine, the characters. and exiting using suicide is a part of that desription, though that suicide itself is really pathetic. i just hope that the writers would reveal in the next episodes why he committed suicide. this show is really excellent. in one (eccentric) way or another, it amazes you and makes you want for more.

just like a vicodin. we are House. somewhat. aren't we?

i'm so gonna miss you Kutner.

(this week just has too much shocking news..)

higher tendency of weeping is before you retire to sleep

2009-04-03T23:30:00.004+09:00

i've never realized the intensity of this question in my life:

i will get an orange.

and i am certain.

(and this was the reason i cried last sunday.)

so confusing, it confuses me some more

2009-04-03T22:28:00.002+09:00

HOLY COW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MIZUSHIMA HIRO GOT MARRIED LAST APRIL 2.

OH COW. OH COW. OH COW.

this is so insane, particularly because i just finished watching mei-chan no shitsuji.

and freaking weird because yesterday night, as in YESTERDAY NIGHT... the night of april 2nd...

when i was lying in my bed before sleeping, i prayed to Jesus:

"Jesus, please if i won't have ryo, i can settle with mizushima hiro... please allow me to marry mizushima hiro some day."

LOLLLLLLL

yes of course, that was a random not serious type of prayer, but why the coincidence?

this is so absurd.

really.

LOOOOOOOOOONGGGGGG

2009-04-03T00:28:00.002+09:00

i finished the final episode of Boys Over Flowers just minutes ago, but i've decided. and i think i've decided eversince episode 14? of BOF.

i vote for Hana Yori Dango as the best adaptation.

Meteor Garden was the first adaptation i've watched, it was aired locally in the country. and i truthfully admit that it became a big dope to me. not only me but the whole country as well. it was so big that they even made the taiwanese F4 come here.
and MG started all asianovela/ koreanovela craze in our country. MG was also responsible for making me go home straight after classes are over and not stay behind and chat with friends. yes, i was as addicted to MG back then, as i was addicted to some of the jdoramas i've watched and at some length, i guess even more.
i loved jerry yen and vic zhou and memorized Qing fei de yi (opening song).
that was how MG affected my life back then.

MG was good when there was no standards to compare with. i mean, it was good because it made me squeal and glued and it was the first adaptation. but, when a new version came, i think it's just natural that you start to compare.
when MG was filmed, asian dramas wasn't really a big thing, so let's give the consideration of F4 not being able to look luxurious and filthy rich, and cinematography isn't that good as to how they shoot taiwanese dramas nowadays.

now, i will be leaving behind my opinions over MG. it's really not substantial to compare it with the newer and more high-budgeted versions.

these are my opinions about HYD and BoF.
some would probably be a bit biased sinced i am more inclined with jdoramas than kdramas.
and also, these are just my opinions, nothing to start chaos with.

i chose HYD because
first of all, i was never irritated with Makino. she was yelling at times but it never really got me into being pissed. it was a whole different story with Jandi, i need not exaggerate, i was always annoyed with her character. particularly during those episodes where junpyo has confessed love for her, and she thinks about ji hoo. given that she initially liked jihoo, it was really annoying that she can't make up her mind of dismissing junpyo. and when she was dating jihoo, she was thinking of junpyo. i mean, what is with this very indecisive character?
also, it seemed like she slipped off the character of the episode 1 jandi - the "i-will-fight-and-save-humanity" simple girl. though, she remained the jandi-we-can-count-on until the end, it seemed like when she started getting complications with being in a relationship with junpyo, we lost the other character that is in her. it became just the serious, problematic jandi.
forgive me also for saying this, because this is a very superficial criterion, but i never really liked the actress they chose as jandi. i never found her cute, i rarely saw the chemistry she has with lee min ho (junpyo) and she was a bit old-looking to be jandi-the-high schooler.

i was able to finish HYD1 in one-sitting, HYD2 did not make me feel like giving up on watching.
while, BoF wasn't really able to maintain the interest level althroughout the duration of the drama.
for me, i didn't really enjoy how it started, i only got the 'i-can't-wait-to-watch-the-next-episode' feeling probably around episode 9. then by episode 12, it again sloped down my interest, and it recovered only by epoisode 18, i guess.
it was such a roller-coaster ride, and it somewhat made the loops less appreciated and exciting.

i have to admit though, that BoF had the most gorgeous F4. it was pretty obvious though, that they did not build the character of woo bin at all, poor guy. and though jihoo is sparkingly awesome and gorgeous, oguri shun will be the best hanazawa rui for me. as for other characters, i really can't pinpoint who among each version portrayed it the best. i have to add also that matsujun's 'baka domyouji' will forever be the awesomEST.

BoF also lost me when they lost all the comedy in the succeeding episodes.
it was fun, with all the dorkiness of junpyo, but come mid episodes, funny scenes were very scarce. that made me lose interest even more.
on the HYD part, there was rarely a dull and dragging moment. they throw in cute scenes and funny scenes and happy scenes and sad scenes and lovey-dovey scenes at a nice rate, frequency and timing.

what made matters worst for me was how much they gave emphasis to the 'friendly' realationship of jandi and jihoo. i really disliked that they had more scenes with jihoo/jandi than with junpyo-jandi, to the point that i even thought that korea would make a bold move of changing how the story goes and make jandi end up with jihoo.
i even told myself that if i were jandi and this is the kind of close relationship i'll have with jihoo, why would i even waste time chasing junpyo, who is perfectly obvious in avoiding me. I WOULD CHOSE JIHOO and with that kind of kindness and dependence to jihoo, who wouldn't fall for him?
it's just that they gave so much attention to the relationship of jihoo and jandi, that i think they weren't able to deepen the relationship between junpyo and jandi.
and this wasn't the case in HYD. sure hanazawa rui was always there when makino needed someone, but you know clearly the boundary that they have in their relationship. and up until the last scenes of hyd2 (i can still remeber this), makino only referred to rui as her first love , best friend and driver, and that was clearly what i've witnessed in the duration of the drama.

sadly, i was flailing more over the gaeul-ee jung story than the junpyo-jandi one. this is how i felt less over how they made the relationship of the latter just not that deep enough.

with BoF's ending everything was like left without definite closure. jandi has no answer to the marriage proposal, eejung and gaeul's real relationship lies upon the viewer's imagination, poor woobin still has no story and junpyo mama became warm-hearted in a blink.
though, there are also things i flailed on. particularly, the eejung and gaeul scenes and ji hoo in glasses, hot. and yes LEE MIN HO is SCREAMING HOT AND SEXY not just in the ending but ALTHROUGHOUT THE SERIES.

also, i have to give props to BoF for not being very selfish with junpyo-jandi kiss scenes. i was happy with that. this was what hyd lacked on the other hand.
what i also loved in BoF is that it was a combination of scenes in both MG and HYD. some scenes that i loved in MG that weren't in HYD, i saw a more visually beautiful counterpart in BoF. and i was grateful that they included such parts, like when they visited the zoo with the kid.

overall, BoF made me want to watch HYD again, sad but true.

it was a brave deed for korea to make their own adaptation when they know that there were standards already set and that they will meet comparison whatever happens . IMO, though they've not surpassed what japan has delivered to me, they've succeeded in their own ways.

you're totally like a fleck of bum fluff. like totally bum fluff.

2009-03-30T19:37:00.004+09:00

i realized i am incapable of making film or drama critic, because i'm just too appreciative of other's works. i'll just settle with reactions then.

and have i said that i am too addicted to House MD. No. Really...

"oh listen to me you antipode and fleck of BUM FLUFF! every single day i take it from you. the hair is adorable. i don't deny that. the figure is svelte."

oh geez, house will never fail.

and i also found this:

exemplary. and forgive the eastern hemispherean in me, for i only knew that this way of speaking is called valspeak or valley girl-like. *baka*

this is like sooo totally genius. seriously...
LOL.
i can't count all the 'like' they uttered.

leave it somewhere there

2009-03-24T18:48:00.005+09:00

how many more friendster account will ryo have in the near future? LOL.
he has 15 accounts as of today.. how many more will it be if asou-kun will be seen all over the Philippine islands?

this is so insane.

i've seen the CM and i don't know what. i really don't know.

and it's funny how everyone is like owning earlier fangirling over the dude. i mean, yeah, i probably should include myself, but i know how neophyte i am in this fandom. i don't know ryo well, and there are girls who have been ryo's fan for so many years before you and i, so i really don't think you should consider yourself like a 'i-know-ryo-better-than-you' kid. seriously.

ikemen tyrrants going forensic

2009-03-24T00:04:00.003+09:00

mei-chan no shitsuji is like a hanakimi and hana yori dango all over again.
plus, mizushima hiro. damn.
and if i were to have a butler like that, damn, i really cannot put my self into studying.

....

voice is also interesting. though, as usual for jdoramas, a different case/story each episode.
i have to judge further, but as of episode 3, i think i can go on and finish this.

....

but mei-chan wins more interest points (though, i've only watched episode 1).
visually appetizing (because of those butlers), and also the never-dying mean girls attack plot.

gee.gee.gee.

2009-03-20T21:49:00.003+09:00

we're too glued to KBS world. and the effect is too much exposure to Girl's Generation..

(and this is the dance version:

this is too cute to be taken for granted.)

KBS world also means another re-run of Boys over Flowers.
speaking of BoF. i am very ambivalent as to whether i like this show or not. i initially didn't like it much, then i liked it about the mid-episodes, and then my interest meter went down again after just a few episodes. so as of the recent episodes, i don't really know. but i'm still going to finish watching this show, anyway.

haruto madness

2009-03-19T20:00:00.003+09:00

oh shit. 1 litre of tears will be broadcasted by GMA. damn. ( i rarely watch gma 7, but this is 1 liter of tears we're talking about..)

it's near, it's near. ryo's face on philippine tv. i have no idea what outcomes will be born from this, i just hope they will place it at a very good timeslot.

who must it be?

2009-03-18T19:52:00.001+09:00

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Family albums - Family search

notepad notes

2009-03-08T01:12:00.002+09:00

this is really tiring.
ranting over the same thing again and again.

and hurting even more because you're considering it your major problem, while nobody's bothering about it at all.

in my mind, i am recalling of a time when somebody gave me a hug when i felt so down.
sadly, i trace nothing.
is there even a time when somebody noticed that i was sad?

is there even a 'somebody'?

...

2009-03-02T20:18:00.003+09:00

ryo was involved in an accident yesterday. he was actually, the cause of the accident. this is such a shocking news. really. It was also said in the news translations that he was not injured (oh, thank God!), but another lady had minor injuries. it was also sited that charges will be filed against ryo for probably reckless driving, not sure. DAMN. i am really thankful he wasn't hurt but i hope this would not cause any injury on ryo and him being in the jimusho. and i hope the old lady would get well soon.

darnnnnnn..

i am so surprised and anxious of what will happen after this. seriously..

i need giant windmills, and so i need a giant home as well. oh nevermind.

2009-02-28T23:24:00.006+09:00

the temperature is oh so rising, so i call it 'officially summer' now... and because the only basis i have to say that it's 'officially summer' is invalid now, because that is in reference to ending of classes.

so i have to change parameters and base it solely on temperature.

yay summer!!
no for too much perspiring. it's really hot these days..

i don't know if i'm heading anywhere this summer. i am still jobless and unproductive. sometimes i get bored of being bored. sometimes i'm quite relieved that i don't have to deal with early morning traffic and because i suck big time at waking up early.

i dug up some cds with pictures and i've seen some insane photography attempts of mine.

please forgive me for failing badly. LOLLL. these are taken during summer some years ago, in our rooftop, so it's still somewhat related to post these.

i am admitting it now. i've lost a lot of pounds of interest over JE fandom. and ryo included. i'm too lazy to download vids or download pictures. i still want to get a hold of it though. it has served a great amount of happiness to me over the past 2-3 years. my problem is, i don't really know what i want to do and accomplish first. what kind of crossroad is this?

ftw, dark and knives.

2009-02-21T23:02:00.003+09:00

these past few days, i've realized some things...

1. the last 4 doramas that i've wathced involved killings, crimes and betrayals

2. initially, i thought bloody monday is better than maou, then at the middle of watching maou, i told myself that they are equally good, and by episode 9 of maou, i've decided maou is beter than bloody monday. AND in the end consider maou way way awesome than bloody monday.

maou is more evil. more twisted. more complicated and exciting.
and there were lesser irritating circumstances in maou than bloody monday.
plus, toma looks good in any camera angle. hawt hawt hawt. smoking hot toma.

i never expected he would act that great. damn.
probably because i saw him act dorky from the beginning. so in maou, damn he's so good. (and hot.)

MAOU IS F*CKING AWESOME...

DAMN

i rooted for an ending like that. kudos for maou's ending, i wouldn't want it any other way.
the ending is so damn unique. i loved maou the series but my love for it would be credited more for it's ending. kudos to writers maikawa-san and nishida-san.

i mean, that ending was one-of-a-kind. no sparing of anyone.

damn, i loved the ending more than anything else.

but i loved how twisted and complicated it was for naoto. i pitied him althroughout because he was a victim of his self's, his family's and his friends' circumstances.
i loved intelligent naruse, and his accident plans. smart evil he is.

this is such a twisted drama, full of revenge and betrayal and death.

AND GHEI MOMENTS.

yes there are ghei moments. especially this 'bonded by death' ending.

no, i'm not being sarcastic that i loved the ending. I SERIOUSLY LOVED IT. (and i cannot really make the ghei portion an exception, because i was laughing hard while a tear was rolling down my cheeks.)

3. sho wins as my favorite arashi.

4. though i still love matsujun because he's matsujun, and aiba because he's dorky and fun, and nino because he's shou-chan and aniki, and ofcourse ohno is the songer of them all and is evil.. no not evil..

... miscalculated calculating sequence

2009-02-16T18:08:00.002+09:00

i am so stressed that i am not stressed... get that?

after 3 months of being called a workforce member, i am again a floating soul at home.
i am very unproductive. AGAIN.

and i have nothing else to say. my brain is malfunctioning. haha.

i want dried mangoes, stat.

2009-02-13T01:47:00.002+09:00

and since it cannot be helped, i'm going to buzz about it as well (but would not go gaga).

Matsumoto Jun's new drama will star him as a half-Filipino, half-Japanese guy with love stuff thingy with Aragaki Yui.

my initial reaction was "EHHHH???!!! hahahaha". in that exact order and with the 'HAHAHA' included for real.

because it sounds weird. he doesn't look filipino at all. he does look asian, and technically speaking filipinos are asian. but still it's such a rare look for a filipino. and if in this drama, his father is the filipino one, then he should have more filipino features according to dominant genes from the father. well, that's just me calculating X-Y genes and nonsense. :)

anyway, i anticipate that in the drama they'll say that he's half-filipino thrice only and would NOT deal about it anymore. LOLL. i mean i don't think it will cause such an issue in that drama. or him like looking for his filipino heritage such and such. oh come on, japan wouldn't be interested in such storyline for their dramas, and that's in my opinion. AND... i highly doubt he will ever film scenes here in the Philippines. but i will ready myself --->LOLLL, i am such a loser. haha

and every Filipino fangirl would want to hear him speak Filipino. not me though. THAT WOULD BE 3000 times MORE WEIRD. REALLY. (just hearing a filipino phrase from Takuya Kimura's drama Good Luck, made me go "HUH????" a thousand times; what more if i hear the lead actor himself throwing in Tagalog lines? O__O)

don't get me wrong, i am a proud Filipino, but i know the reality that Japanese doesn't give a damn about Filipinos or the Philippines.

and if they make Filipinos look bad and stupid in this drama, i would have grudge to Japan. i hope they wouldn't do that. that would be really chaotic. knowing that filipinos hate being discriminated even a little bit.

coats and vitamin c for colds

2009-02-07T00:52:00.004+09:00

if there's one thing i'd wish the Korean HYD would defy from the original is that they make ga eul and yi jung (yuki and soujiro) end up together happily. i cross my fingers. please grant me this Korea, the two look good together.

ji hoo (hanazawa rui) is like a knight in shinning armour-slash-mushroom-slash-genie-slash-satellite. he sure knows when, where and what depressing situation/danger has happened to jandi that he shows up in a blink of an eye. BLINK OF AN EYE, i dare say.

i like you ji hoo, but i can never give up on the fail and dork that is embeded on goo jun pyo. sorry.

truthfully, i only started seeing sparkling lights for boys before flowers in episode 9. and i'm still often annoyed by jandi and her random glued moments to ji hoo while she's goo jun pyo's girlfriend and random thinking about ji hoo prior to thinking about jun pyo moments. but it's getting intersting. i hope it'll last until episode 24.

i dare say it's not lupus.

2009-02-06T00:48:00.003+09:00

i watched Slumdog Millionaire and i found it a very good film. the genre of the story is a very common one - the from rags to riches kind of movie, but the plot was very interesting and how the story itself unfolds is brilliantly written. the actors were very good as well. and Jamal looks good. but a big surprise came by the end of the film, i was out of my chair seeing that everyone was dancing. dancing. everyone. i have never watched any Hindi films from before, so i am very sorry if i am sounding stupid or what, but is this a common thing in Bollywood? i am so sorry for such imbecile inquiry.. please enlighten me.

i am so happy that Hugh Laurie received something from the Screen Actors Guild awards. i hope one day Dr. House can diagnose my real disease, because i am sick again. what a weakling i am! LOL.

i am to watch House season 5 after i write this post. i missed House.

my mom is very very indecisive. last month she told me to just work in texas. a week after that she asked me if i'd like to find work in canada, and today she was telling me all this stuff about work in london! seriously mom! do you want to tour around the world?!!

pocari sundays, seven pm inventory

2009-02-01T02:18:00.002+09:00

call me sadist or whatever but i would want to watch crows zero 2. ASAP. i want to see hard-headed hot guys scarring each others faces soon. i mean miura haruma is there. so i need to judge for myself.

*********************
over and done.

finally, three months is up and deadline has succumb. i'm back to the bum life. except that i have so many plans ahead for my career and my f*cking health.
i need iv training. i need it be accomplished.
i need to get a grip of my health.
i need my lungs checked up, my blood screened for things and such and such.
i had an unhealthy practice in the hospital, plus my immune system is blah, so i need to fucking hold on to a healthy me.
please help me take initiative and be responsible.

*********************

i didn't expect it to occur, but somehow, i'm going to miss my hospital duties. and most especially, the people i've spent almost twelve hours of each day with. for pals that have become friends. for gossips and patient TIA bad mouthings. though i became tired of long hours and days spent in the corners of the hospital, there were fun and happy conversations, tauntings and happenings.

*********************

where do i go from here?

unknown. AGAIN. (sh't i'm back to that word.)

wala.

2009-01-27T19:14:00.002+09:00

parang ayoko ng magkaroon ng kaibigan. hehe
isa na itong burden.

parang pag nakisama ulit ako, i'll be listening to foreign language already.

so better yet, wag ng makipagmeet up.

obviously, they gave up on reaching out.

my fault, i admit.

i was too lazy and tired of listening to their personal life. puro storya din lang naman nila ang maririning. kasi uninterested din naman sila sa kung ano mang sasabihin ko.

so okay. i better partially and slowly close down the thought that i can still lean on them or tell stories to them or whatever lies between what friends should mutually do.

hay nako. sawang-sawa na ako sa mga rants na to sa kaibigan.

this is slowly and painfully becoming a BURDEN.

BURDEN.

rundown of two emotions

2009-01-14T16:54:00.003+09:00

hello earth!

i am nov.

and i'm currently floating due to flailing over hana yori dango final. i can't stop my brain cells from extracting too much hanadanF memories.

i have watched the movie everyday since i have downloaded it. why must it be like this?

this is exactly how i felt after i've finished rummaging over handan1 and after hanadan return was over.

exactly why?

i crave fro more domyouji-makino.

____________________________________________

hello earth.

i am nov.

and i've seen death with my very own eyes again. it's tormenting seeing relatives try hard to be composed when a loved one is being cpr-ed, intubated and flatlining in front of them. it's no drama, there are no cameras.

i talked to ojisan minutes prior to that. he was speaking with me saying 'it's so difficult. it's so difficult to breathe.' 30 minutes passing, no more. breathing was too exhausting for him.

ironically, 3 days prior to ojisan's demise, on the same bed were he stayed, W grew tired of breathing as well, and bade goodbye to earth. they had the same body position when i last saw them. and they both said the same words when i last spoke with them. 'it's difficult. very difficult to breathe.' but then it was the shift after us when W expired. though i will never ever forget the last words i heard from him: "i don't want it anymore, it's so hard to breathe. i feel like dying."

i know. this profession would involve more of this. more seeing death right before your eyes.
but i pray, i pray real hard that i would never encounter something like this again.
talking to someone one minute, and seeing them lifeless the next is laborous to heart.
too laborous.

it's destiny therefore

2009-01-13T02:00:00.003+09:00

the very first jdorama i finished watching was hana yori dango.
and just like how i fell in love with it in season 1 and season 2, i still feel the same way in the movie.
i just don't like the feeling of craving more of something and you know that it's really over.

i love hanadan. i love domyoujiXmakino. i love hanazawa rui and oguri shun. i love matsujun as tsukasa and inoue mao as makino tsukushi. i love the pair. i'll ship them till eternity. darn. i am so going to have a hang up feeling with this movie for some more time, i am pretty sure.

i want more hanadan episodes/movies.
more domyouji and tsukushi rabu.
moto. moto. moto.

ticket to brown

2009-01-06T23:03:00.004+09:00

yellow jello mellow wellow helloooooo 2009!

just a few more days before my hospital training will be over. a part of me doesn't want it to end, but a larger part of me wants to just get it over with and live a bum life again to finish my drama list. i learned a lot and is still learning a loy more. i don't know if i've improved a lot though. there are still circumstances where i am such a nuisance. but i became familiar with the set-up and i managed to somehow see the real RN persona.

johnny's countdown was bland. i love last year's a whole lot better. a factor of which is because tackey was somewhere, kinkikids was in osaka, while everybody else were in tokyo. THEY WERE NOT TOGETHER IN ONE VENUE. WHICH IS A COMPLETE FAILURE.

and it made me realize, i do not know the names of senpais. except the very famous ones. i technically forget them again and again.

*i hope there'll be more ryo dramas please.
*i wish for another country-escape.
*i wish to afford more je goodies
*i wish i could finish watching all dramas i wanted to watch
*i will buy more brown clothing because it's a lucky color, and i'm soo loving it more and more
*i am hoping full swing that i'll be able to fix the broken fragments of my life. (uh, drama)

hoping for a great and healthy year for everyone!!

ox-y doxy

2008-12-31T01:57:00.003+09:00

uh, we're down down down to the last few hours of 2008.

this will probably be the last post of 2008. except if fangirling over johnny's countdown overpowers. and i shall be able to make an end-of-year flailing-massacre post. yey.

2008 was a good year for me.

i graduated and got my degree. i passed my NLE, attach RN (ryo nishikido) to my name and i was able to find a hospital to have training. i was also able to visit my bro in singapore. and bum around for nearly five months.

it was also a lucky year for ryo, i believe.

2 dramas. 1 special with uchi.
winning 2 best supporting actor awards
and being well-loved taisuke in RnK.
both NEWS and eito were successful as well.

what's for this coming year?
i won't quit fangirling any sooner.
i hope to find a job and earn.
i wish my computer won't be such a retard.
i am looking forward for happiness.

**on a sad note, my grandmother passsed away yesterday. this is a sad way of starting a new year. she has stayed as the strongest grandmother althroughout her days.

eternal rest grant her soul oh Lord

kittens? why kittens?

2008-12-30T22:36:00.004+09:00

i love you too baby :)

(in reply for dec 27th j-web entry)

LOL

winter wonder land

2008-12-24T19:24:00.003+09:00

season's greetings everyone!

it's Christmas!!

yehey!

i love the Christmas season, unfortunately, this year i wasn't able to feel deeply into it.

but anyway, what counts is giving love, sharing love and Jesus birth.

have a blessed and joyful Christmas everyone!!

farewell friday night habit

2008-12-20T23:56:00.004+09:00

hah. i was right after all. he was the murderer. i was doubting it was togami as i believed that there will come a twist by the end of this series. i was right.

i barely understood a thing in watching the raws but it made me pour down some tears. particularly the talk between koichi and kashihabara-san.

it can't sink in to me that this series has ended. that i have to erase from my cellphone reminders the ryuusei no kizuna @ 8:45 pm reminder.

i well-loved this dorama. how it was created. everyone's acting. the script. the story itself. and it was automatic to me that at saturday morning i'll visit d-a and download the raws immediately.

i am going to miss this friday-saturday habit.

and i can't help listening to this track again and again.

kouno shin - shishiza ryuuseigun

often times, i have goosebumps.

expired at 2350

2008-12-20T22:20:00.003+09:00

sudden.

i didn't know why i felt not much surge of emotions at 10.50, when his relatives came asking for us to see their grandfather.

i wasn't panicking nor down blue and sad. there was just adrenalin and sense of urgency as to what i was asked to run for errand.

that's how i felt..

for the first time i was seeing a man lose his life.

from loss of bp, loss of pulse, ecg flatline, cold cold body.

i heard him moan, and that was his last.

an old man lost his life 6 days before christmas at 11:50 pm.

but other than that i saw real emotions of a family grieving for a loved one they will no longer be able to talk to.

and after doing post mortem, then i realized, how sudden things had gone. just two hours before 10:50 we were just instructing him for ngt insertion and he was responding. then after just 200 minutes he was lifeless.

life, you will never really know when it will expire.

Eternal rest grant unto his soul oh Lord and let perpetual light shine upon him.
May he rest in peace, Amen.

coping

2008-12-18T14:52:00.002+09:00

friends CHANGE.

usually, they change into everything they said they WOULDN'T BE.

you just have to accept it, and realize everyone changes in their lifetime.

the CHALLENGE is to stay friends and prove to everyone that friendships can last through ANYTHING.

whirlwind wobble

2008-12-07T23:40:00.003+09:00

wow. i have a growing love for ryusei no kizuna. episode 8 was magnificent! though i didn't understand a whole lot, i somehow managed to get the gist of the episode. i wanted to watch more of it but at the same time i don't want it to end.

i still love every scene where they show the siblings very warm relationship. but since shi knows of the truth now, there are some very little random points of awkwardness in between them. i don't think though that taisuke is developing a more-than-a-younger-sister love for shi. but this is japan. we can never predict the taboo they'll get into next, so i won't conclude. (but i admit though that i will be a fan of ryo-erika pair.)

and yay! for the delusional chief, takayama's return. i love his character. and that last scene was a chair-hugging scene. suspense! suspense!

i pity shizuna for she's so torn. i don't think any choice she'll make would make her completely happy.

how i wish there'd be more episodes. but unfortunately, there will most likely be 2 episode left. darn. i hope i can understand japanese better and i can't wait for next week's episode.

and i miss ryo.

tell me tomorrow

2008-12-04T19:45:00.003+09:00

well hello there blogging!

i have gotten used to my hospital schedules. unfortunately, my 'it's the christmas season' feeling diminished because of preoccupation to this training.

i have missed two weeks of internet life because it was the monitor that gave up. which means that i missed ryuusei episode 6 & 7 live streaming.

it's been a month since ryo's birthday and i have not created anything. darn.

i am so tired as well.

21 days before christmas! yay!

frontal lobers

2008-11-17T20:19:00.004+09:00

tired.

putting my feet to work is so tiring. 13 hours of duty with no pay is such a pain. but anyway, i'm rooting for experience. i hope time flies fast and it will be january real soon. what i am happy about is that i learn a lot of things. i just don't know when will be the time that i'll be able to be efficient and not be such a nuisance. sometimes, i think that using 'i am a neophyte' as an excuse is being such a cliche already. i feel intimidated at the rate that fellow older volunteers perform. it's really hard when you're struggling as a newbie. but somewhow i hope, i have improved.

ryuusei no kizuna episode five.

less comedy and more bits and clues about the murder. i am very eager to know the real deal about the mystery. but somehow i am missing the cosplays and swindling. i am being indulged int his series more and more. good thing is the next two fridays, i am not scheduled for graveyard shifts. yay! ill still be able to stream it live.

NEWS's color

(which contrary to the album title, their album jacket's pictures where showing dull and serious black and mysterious fit in it. NO RAINBOWS.)

why would i even give an effort of writing my opinions when i haven't even listened to it carefully. but i have played ryo's solo - ordinary - twice already. it felt like something to be heard as an insert song for an anime. and right now i am hearing yamapi's english song. the bits of english words from gomen ne juliet has now transformed into an entire song... surprisingly, i can understand his enunciations and words (everybody feeling kinda naughty... free me tonight) MOLA is the title of this song, which i do not f*cking know what means or what's the story about it and the first thing that comes to my mind is totoy mola. (wait OMG is that 'booties' i just heard. LOLLLLL). anyways, i have nothing else to say as i still need time for this songs to grow in me. and nobody cares about my review anyway. LOLLL.

'i am a sadist.' -ampule

2008-11-08T00:19:00.005+09:00

i still can't create a ryo-(post)-birthday post (the hell with me.) for now, because the computer is infected with malignancy again, for the 8656267517670 times. so i promise i'll create one as soon as i have a well-groomed pc and mecha time.

okay. for now. let's stick to my stories.

one: the hate that dear ampule directs to me

i have a life now. (yay!). i volunteered as an RN at a secondary hospital near our subdivision. it's like a 'welcome-to-the-real-life-of-a-staff-RN-party'. this is something real now. not that duty days during college were fraud, but more of something that you have to do decision making on your own now. the staff at the hospital are very accommodating and nice. even the doctors give their share of jokes and smiles. i'm still striving though to what things i should do during shifts. damn, it's so hard to be a neophyte. and ampules are giving me a hard time. why can't it just break without making my fingers bleed. you'll have your day ampule. hah.

two: his chest, his chest

there is a good-looking doctor in the hospital. he is also a new doctor there so he just came in like a 'woah'. i mean he's good looking in my opinion (and so as what other staff says). but i don't know his name. it's too hard to remember and pronounce. so i'll just call him Dr. R.O.D. and his chest? nah, nevermind. i would rather not say something about it.

three: of IV, plain NSS and backflow

today, nov. 7, 2008 is by far the most tiring duty i ever had my whole life. we had 10 admissions. i was running from third floor up down, then up again, then down again. my feet barely survived this day. until now, when i step my feet, my heels are screaming in pain. it's such a tiring day, but a very fulfilling one. i hope i'd be able to improve my skills. that's my big dream.

four: four, episode four

i love ryusei no kizuna, and i can't can't can't get enough of it. and i've realized what i love most from this dorama. it's the very warm relationship of the siblings. i even like the little koichi, taisuke and shizuna. they're so adorable.
i watched tonight's episode at a very very reliable live streaming link (which i don't know what its name is) and there was no buffering. it's like watching it in our very own tv. i really laugh out loud loud loud loud louder loudest at thug taisuke. because ryo as a hiphop, blingbling, 'yo my man' thug IS DEFINITELY SOMETHING TO LAUGH ABOUT. ("N-A-O. nao-chan, yeahhhh") (wait a minute, the scrub suit i wore today looked like hiphop on me, imo, because it's very loose. LOL. blingbling taisuke premonition.) and my most loved scene was when taisuke & shii were walking along the seawall (i am not sure what the exact term for that particular structure is) while shi was like pushing her tai-nee and they were laughing at their aniki. aww that sibling bond is mucho love.

five: no, not yet enough

otanjoubi omedetou ryo-chan!!

gomen ryo, but still aishiteru ♥ ♥ ♥

2008-11-05T17:47:00.005+09:00

I F*CKING MISSED A RYO-BIRTHDAY POST!!!!!!!!!

what a stupid stupid failure!!!

damn. i feel such a failure. and up to this day, i still haven't created anything. fail fail fail.

gomen ryo-chan. demo, daisuki til eien.

but anyway, i still managed to greet him through heart (wtf) at exactly 12 midnight (japan time) of november 3rd.

i'll do a birthday post when i have a longer day off.

yes, day off.

omedetou to me because i have a life now. gleeee!!!

i do volunteer work for a hospital near our subdivision. and my first day started on ryo's birthday. anyway, i can't go into details now because my mind is still preoccupied with a dream i had this morning! that was probably the greatest dream i had up until this day of my life!! (and it also adds up that it is only during rare circumstances that i am able to remember my dream when i wake up. LOL).

life updates next time.

for now..

umareta koto deaeta koto

ima soba ni ireru koto arigatou

RYO-CHAN happy birthday

ichinen ni ichido no mahou tokubetsu na hi

rainbow report 02 (except that there is no rainbow at all)

2008-10-30T00:58:00.005+09:00

musekinin hero lacked something. i found it just bland. and the color around them, the office is just basic. eito was just office workers fooling around, and not fooling around as in fooling around ala wahaha video. probably i miss the short leather shorts and choreography.

who wouldn't love maru's crack?

i won't be fooled baru, sorry.

because there is no screencap of ryo, so i would need to provide one.

it wouldn't be complete without yoko's crack.

the slob that is in ohkura tadayoshi.

yes of course. THE RAINBOW IS MISSING.

i need more short & fitting leather shorts eito.

kyoudai rabu

2008-10-29T23:46:00.002+09:00

probably, sometimes, it pays that you don't set standards or too much expectations from a drama. i have not read the manga and have not followed previous works of kudo kankuro and i'm soooo loving this drama. that kind of feeling that you want to continuously watch it.

i don't really mind what others think about it, but i'm pretty sure i am going to finish the entire series.

it is a mixture of funny moments and wanting to know what was the real reason behind the murder of their parents, and i love the siblings' interaction with each other. i am positively sure that i am not just hanging on to the drama because of ryo. probably what draws me a lot is the siblings' bond. their very close relationship is so cute that i am envious. hihi (to think that i have two older borthers as well.)

i want to watch more. more. more.

you mean, bloody faces, right?

2008-10-26T00:38:00.004+09:00

Crows zero.

woah to all the violence that high school students do in this film. they were wearing uniforms in most of the scenes but i never saw them sitting in a class while a teacher is teaching. LOL. but it's not all about violence (um, i think). i still had fun watching it because in some ironic way i found it 'cool'. LOL.

oh japan, it's only you who can put out movies such as high school gangs beating each other all throughout the movie, twins falling in love with each other, teens killing each other (until only one will remain alive) because they are such pain in the ass for the adults of society, and all those unusual and sensitive themes a mind can think of (and some minds can barely think of.) *salute*

time for a comeback

2008-10-25T01:25:00.005+09:00

** because it's such a momentous event for me, yay!! i'm so happy because vendy is back to updating her site again!! how i wish i can write chinese so i can properly thank her! and tell her how much i adore her! lol..

** ryuusei no kizuna episode 2: i have nothing to say, because i didn't really understand a thing. i'll wait for subs, first. (btw, keyhole wasn't such an ass during the airing time. thanks keyhole, with mucho love.)

** ryo's birthday in 8 days. wow. very fast.. and i am not exerting any effort to do something ryo-related for that day.

______________________________

i rewatched last friends (minus the SP), just to be fair with it. and i tried my very best to watch it without being ryo-biased (though i had a hard time doing that in the first episode). and i think it made sense.

because i take back the things i said before.

not all though.

it was something good in it's own sense. there were flaws in the course of it, but it was not such a crappy drama, as what i used to brand it.

i salute it for being a bold one, tackling issues that were too sensitive and are most likely taken for granted. it wasn't a good-going-bad,-ending-worst-drama.

every actor did a good output in the role they're acting. i think there is no one who acted better or weaker than the other. for me, they were able to show their characters and were able to counterbalance to that of their co-actors' acting.

i take back also that masami didn't act well.

michiru. surprisingly, i didn't get as irritated as before with michiru. because, i cannot just say "why don't you just leave sousuke alone. go away. live with your friends in the share house. that's so fucking easy."
it was explained why she didn't just leave sousuke initially, because she only felt loved in the arms of sousuke. and i guess it can't be helped that though she's being beaten, her love for sousuke weighed more than anything else. and who ever said that she was such a weakling, just watched the drama superficially. what i saw was she tried her very best to escape sousuke, break up with sousuke and fight for her friends against sousuke.
i still don't like masami nagasawa though. but i think she did really well in this drama. not her usual tweetums roles.

but, i feel greatest for takeru (the character).

takeru. he was one that didn't have a good background structure well. but despite that limitation, eita was able to give out the reliable takeru. everybody was so insensitive to his story and his past. he was always the one who was solving their problems and he's keeping his own grievances to himself. that's why i feel the most for takeru.

i won't go on one by one to every character because that will make one hell of a very long post. but as far as i have rewatched this drama i think everything was explained. why sousuke died of suicide, why michiru didn't leave souske, why ruka just left the share house. i think every occurence was explained with even just a tiny bit of explanation. but. some didn't just have enough explanation to it, like takeru and sousuke's pasts. and not much of eri's story. (but damn, i love mizukawa asami so so much. she's very very very pretty. ryo-asami as my best otp ♥ ♥ ♥)

and because it can't be helped.

but. i don't recommend it to be watched by closed-minded people and by the my-idol-is-the-only-greatest-actor-in-the-whole-world fans. (LOL. oh dear me, i haven't disregarded about that. kidding. LOL.)

shoot.

2008-10-24T21:06:00.006+09:00

** ryuusei no kizuna episode 2 coming out in about 45 minutes and i haven't watched the subbed version of episode 1.

** and since there is a blooming fanboy in ryo nishikido for orlando bloom, and so do i. not because of ryo. but because of legolas. (yes, damnit i was only able to watch the f*cking lotr movie, seven years after it was shown on the big screen. I AM SUCH A LOSER. I KNOW.)

** and because i love the too sexy ad of axn...

i ♥ shaun

2008-10-19T02:42:00.005+09:00

laugh out loud is equivalent to shaun the sheep.

release the child in you.

timmy in a tizzy

*btw, i have made improvements in my lj account. i am so proud of myself for figuring this out on my own and attaining success! hapeeeeee! here it is.

special otap ftw

2008-10-18T00:45:00.005+09:00

ryusei no kizuna.. hmm, what can i say?

still more to come in the next episodes, i guess. i mean, the whole story won't just appear in episode 1. for me, episode one weighed a little more into the comedy side. and though, i have no idea what they are saying, i pretty much laughed at some scenes. probably because it's ryo acting oh-so enthusiastic. way way different from the dv sousuke. i think i like erika toda. LOL. kawaii, kawaii. when i see her all i can say is 'kawaii'. i think her role affects that a lot. the youngest of the siblings going 'aniki, aniki'. aww kawaii. oh, what's happening to me? LOL.
though nino and ryo are of same age, i saw how nino as koichi was really the oldest of the three. i missed nino.

i'll finish watching these series, whatever happens or whatever they say. i mean, i'm not the type who starts a series and doesn't finish it, i think... (except for some. LOL.)

after watching episode one of RnK in live stream,

i watched the subbed hanamaru cafe episode where ryo was guest. (thanks to magnificent as always, newsHfan@lj)

AND IT WAS A 25-MINUTES FLAILING FIESTA.

woah.

there were moments when my heart was literally beating different, arrythmias, dokidoki, whatever it is called.

i think i will never ever doubt that ryo is really my ichiban.

* he is so shy around erika toda, that i have feelings that he likes her. (if it weren't because they're starring as siblings, i'd ship them more than my dream otp ryo-asami, but i don't go for incest stories.)

* ryo really loves pi. (i still ship that otp.)

* and by the end of the show, he still manages to show his perverted side.

* he smirked at the opening song of hanamaru cafe!!!! LOLLLLLL. i think he was surprised. the nerve.

* he was nervous all throughout the show. it was obvious. he was saying random and nonsense things. and a whole massive amount of 'sumimasen'. like if it wasn't subbed, i'd probably be indulged in counting all the 'sumimasen' he said.

MEMBER AI ♥
(some of the pictures he brought with him)

this is definitely a must-watch for any ryo fan. he shared a lot of things about his family, his living alone, how he entered the jimusho and his experiences being in two groups.

(the host said that being in two groups was really unusual.)

and this made me proud.

route nowhere

2008-10-16T00:45:00.006+09:00

!!MEME POST!!

i was asked to answer this in the multiply site. but i'll do it here instead. :)

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. nov
2. len
3. nobu (c/o megy)
[... and so many other creative nicknames done by 'awesome' friends, like nobita, novelbine, etc]

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
(i am not a celebrity.) usernames i use in information superhiway if that's what you refer about:
1. gelatinsky
2. notnoberene
3. gelatinreiko

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. smile :D
3. no more. LOL

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. .003% japanese
2. full-blooded filipino
3. Xp

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. flying gokiburi (damn. i feel helpless when i see flying roaches)
2. hold-up man.. LOL
3. darkness??

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. prayers (exactly jem.)
2. hanky
3. hair comb

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. my glasses
2. house clothes
3. reindeer antlers (haha, i always like wearing it, while i'm in front of the pc these past few days, oh the Christmas feeling..)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. NEWS IS A BOY BAND (boy band is still a band, right?)
2. kanjani8
3. parokya ni edgar & the ever so popular eraserheads

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (right now)
1. nande nande dame by NEWS (i still can't memorize the entire song!)
2. lovestoned by justin timberlake
3. i love you always forever by diana lewis (because of the doug kramer-cheska garcia wedding that i recently watched)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
(i had a hard time answering this. crap.)
1. happiness?
2. trust?
3. acceptance?
(what nonsense answers!! LOL)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I’m happy right now
2. I’m not happy right now
3. I’m wearing reindeer antlers (wtf)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. for-the-win smile (which can serve as ulam in every meal..)
2. eyes that melts
3. ... (can't think of anything else)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1.watching jdoramas and other series
2. internet galore
3. sleeping!!!! (definitely.)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. get my self together. (i am damn shattered.)
2. finish downloads
3. eliminate procrastinating attitude

THREE SITES YOU ALWAYS VISIT:
1. livejournal
2. blogspot
3. multiply & facebook

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. nurse
2. doctor
3. pilot
4. cashier (because i want to hit the cash register and listen to the amusing sound!)
[and so many more: interior designer (my frustration), astronaut and english teacher in japan (LOL)]

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan (nobody guessed that for sure!!!!)
2. HAWAII (DEFINITELY!!!)
3. Italy

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. cruise
2. watch a NEWS or Kanjani8 concert
3. build a snowman :)

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. stays in front of the pc for hourssssss
2. doesn't want to spend too much time shopping and going around mall
3. i am amazingly well at slacking off

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. the mood swings
2. i have female reproductive organs (lol)
3. hopeless romantic (yes, i am.)

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. ryo nishikido (really?????)
2. zanjoe marudo
3. hayami mocomichi and mizushima hiro (they come as a package. hihi)

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. not
2. really
3. applicable to be answered

: (

2008-10-14T21:33:00.003+09:00

just when you thought that you had somehow managed to lay your real thoughts to someone, you receive dead ends again.

is love really that conquering and all, that anything concerning a girl-boy relationship weighs greater than real life sentiments not running around details about courtship, teeny lovey-dovey and other oh-so cheesy stuff?

damn.

call me bitter or what, but that simple thing made me realize how you choose and prioritize what you'd ONLY listen to.

that's why i can't really search for ANY BREATHING SINCERE LISTENER IN THIS PLANET.

:(

ow fail.

eigo niyo muna...

2008-10-10T23:48:00.005+09:00

JPEPA

boo japan!

you're rich, we know, but you still have no right to step on us.

not fair! not fair!

ikimasu

2008-10-09T21:19:00.009+09:00

i feel real sad when i see this subject in my e-mail: Upcoming Mail Artist. sender: CDJapan.

K8's musekinin hero

and

NEWS's color

DAMNNNNNNNNNN. I AM BROKE. TO THE UTMOST.

*sighhhhhhhhhhhh*

what shall i do then? awwwwwwww

johnny k. can't stop releasing albums and singles and that makes me feel even helpless.
(and there's even two sets of limited edition for musekinin hero, that has two different dvd versions. talk about earning fucking a lot.)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

i just finished watching PACIFIC DVD, as in just 10minutes ago (thanks to magnificent newshfan and other uploaders in lj) and damn i want to buy that dvd too. helfffffff.

i mean, who can resist NEWS, their costumes and fanservice?

* the non-stop fanservice by dearly beloved yamashita tomohisa... *applause* (if i were a BIG yamapi fan, i think i have fainted sooooooo many times during the whole run of the dvd.)

* ryo-chan daisuki. ♥

* koyama = camwhore. tegoshi running in second.

* RYO THE BULLIEST OF THEM ALL. i was laughing hard hard hard hard when he tipped koyama in the card game and shige lost. shige is always the bullied kid. awww shige..

*MASSU THE GREAT XIAO LONG BAO. (great buta massu)

* i didn't see flying (except for taiwan con), and they discovered new exhibition: WATER!!! (i assume next time they'll have fire, water, flying for wind, and land.. probably something like mud wrestling. LOL) and not much feathers and bombing, i mean fire exhibitions.

*ONSEN - i am looking forward to more in the next dvds.

* sho and nino cameo. awww. sweet.

* the nantoka narusa of koyama, damn cute. LOLLLLLL. i ♥ koyama. akachan koyama..

There's this stain in this pillow and i've been wondering what i should do about it
(kitto, nantoka narusa. shinpai wa nai sa)
*nods* sou ka.
(kono michi massugu itte miyo)
sou ka. iinda
(kaze no fuku mama, sou kanjiru ga mama)
koko..
(sususmeba daijoubu ashita mo ii otenki)
sou ka!!! ja, ikou...

KAWAII!!

* and this scene must have been a premonition for ryusei no kizuna:

see, i am still under catatonic stupor due to the Pacific dvd, and there's another release. see. see. how can i ever survive in this fandom?

helf.

stat IS now

2008-10-09T01:27:00.004+09:00

i finished watching code blue. (i am such a sucker for medical dramas Xp)

and here are my thoughts: !!SPOILERS.

... it took us two years before we were able to have hospital duties and wear scrub suits, that's why sometimes i feel like these actors are lucky indeed. they never had formal trainings in schools but they were able to wear scrub suits, enter operating rooms, do 'mock' operations and ride helicopters.
i bet those real nihonjin ER interns are hating that yamapi et al rode the heli without attending medical school.

... aragaki yui is so young-looking to be an intern and generally to be a doctor. she is so kawaii and her voice is so soft that i never really took her seriously as a doctor. plus her bangs, i hope she can tie it up or clamp it, i am so bothered by it.

... i thought this series will be yamapi sreen time fiesta. but not as much as i expected. and most of the time it was aragaki yui i'm seeing.

... i found code blue as a mix of house md, grey's anatomy and iryu.

*house md - because of the munchausen case (which, bragging aside, i guessed that diagnosis right away. LOL)

*grey's anatomy - because of what happened to kuroda-sensei. THAT IS SO GREY'S ANATOMY. a surgeon losing his most beloved arm.

*iryu - they tackled each of the intern's life. a conflict with this sensei's life this episode, then with that sensei the next episode. except for erika toda's character.. she had no family conflict and no grave medical attachment..

... i nearly cried, well actually, i cried. because the cold-hearted aizawa-sensei cried when he was moved by his beloved obachan's words.. and when kenichi called kuroda-sensei 'otuousan'. awww, such moving scenes. T_T

... curly yamapi, i mean aizawa-sensei, forgot to put a sterile cap on when he did an emergency on-site operation. (that's no good.. aseptic technique is a rule.)

... i don't know how hospital management works in japan but i find it pretty confusing that the ER doctors are also doing surgical operations. i mean, as far as i know, cases that concerns ER only revolves around ER. when a patient needs an operation, he is passed on to the surgeons of the OR. minor surgeries are the responsibilities of ER senseis.

... mmmm how was yamapi's acting abilities as the doctor who posses a strong facade and unwavering determination? i think it's in between excellent and very satisfactory. sure i saw the cold-hearted doctor in him, but i think i'm missing something, which i cannot identify. i give props though, because it was well explained why he was a cold-hearted, hardworking doctor.

... i didn't like that in episode 9, i never saw shiraishi-sensei apologize to kuroda-sensei. i mean, if it were me, i am in great remorse. i would only ask for apology again and again and again. i know it isn't right, but i only blamed her about what happened to kuroda-sensei. i saw her remorse but i didn't hear her apologize immediately to kuroda-sensei.

... saijou-sensei said the most truthful line that is so appropriate for the medical field:

'i cannot guarantee that. The only one who can do something like that is God.'
and
'you guys think that medicine is almighty? a doctor is not God. there isn't really that much we can do. whether the world is unreasonable or, whatever it is, you have to understand that there are some things in this world you just have to accept.'

... i'm sorry to say though that i still like iryu more than code blue. i don't know why, probably it's the musical score. and iryu dealt into patient's lives more than the doctor's lives.

... i wish there'll be a doctor heli as well here in manila. and wards like that for all public hospitals here. hmmmm

this dorama, for me, is still worth watching for anyone who craves for medical dramas, and for anyone just wanting a go for drama.

chestnuts roasting on our kitchen

2008-10-07T20:34:00.007+09:00

Christmas is near.

i love the Christmas season. four things that made me realize that it's coming near:
1. the Coca-cola commercial (holidays are coming. holidays are coming...)
2. we assembled and decorated our Christmas tree yesterday, and it has a lot of red ribbons. cutie..
3. i am wearing a reindeer antler while typing this.
4. and the night news features Christmas segments everyday.

79 DAYS TO GO BEFORE CHRISTMAS!!

......................................

Ryusei no kizuna is near. 10 more days to go.

but i'm feeling rather.... umm, not that excited about it. i hope it will be a good one.

......................................

after the Taiwanese, the the Japanese and now it's confirmed that there will be a Korean version of Hana Yori Dango. i'm crossing my fingers that they won't remake it into a Filipino adaptation; like my girl, bleh. Xp

......................................
and here are the resident bullies of the jimusho:

poor tegoshi.

bring that bling

2008-10-03T15:31:00.001+09:00

I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

--> stuck in a moment
U2

50 episodes of love

2008-10-01T21:14:00.002+09:00

i finished watching They Kiss Again (It Started with a Kiss 2) last night, no actually it's 2.30 am today. i felt just like how i felt when i finished watching season 1, which is emptiness. yeah.. it's like i felt so indulged in this series that it's difficult to accept that it already ended. and ended for real.

the 2 series had both happy and sad, exciting and boring phases. but it's still very entertaining to have watched their roller coaster love story. i considered season 1 as my most loved Taiwanese series. i managed to watch 30 chapters in 20 hours, i think. basically, i spent one whole day for the whole season 1. and i loved it. after finishing it, i actually did re-runs of my favorite parts after 1 day. and i felt so empty the following days and sooooo addicted to it. that's how much ISWAK has affected my life those days.

for this season 2, i still felt emptiness, but i have to admit not as much as that feeling in season1. i felt more of 'this is such a cliffhanger'. too bad though, because there won't be any more season 3. the manga wasn't finished because the author, Kaoru Tada, died. the director of the Taiwanese series, Qu You Ning didn't want to lead away from the original and just left their series 'unfinished' as well. *sigh*

the good news is joe cheng and ariel lin will team up again in an upcoming series, Love and Bread. surely, i'm going to watch this.

'it pains me to breathe'

2008-09-30T00:12:00.005+09:00

i remember sometime ago that i took time looking for the song of the sprite ad with lyrics: "i'm falling away with you..."

and lucky enough, when i looked for it in youtube today. a video provided me with dl location.

this song is LOVE.
(i am dying to hear someone sing this to me at this point of my life.)

here's the lyrics:

FALLING AWAY WITH YOU

I’m falling away
I’m falling away with you

We can’t always say
In the cool light of day what’s true

Time may heal your wounds
I’ll see you through

I thought we’d create
hearts in a sea of blue
We’d give and not take
I said I believed in you

But I’m falling away
I’m falling away with you
Time may heal your wounds
I’m seeing you through
Your eyes may fade from view
I’m seeing you through..

I’m torn at the seams
It pains me to breathe
You think you’re not needed
But I feel your pain
It’s alway the same
But let’s not feed it
Yet here in my soul
I want you to know
I’ll never leave

There’s nothing to say
No more charades for fools
I came here to stay
I’m falling away with you
I’m falling away
I’m falling away with you..

Time may heal your wounds
I’ll see you through
Your eyes may fade from view
I’ll see you through
Time may heal your wounds
I’ll see you through

I’m falling away
I’m falling away with you
I’m falling away

got this lyrics from this site: HERE.i think the writer gave most information you'd want to know about the ad and the song.and there's also places where you can down the song.
but just in case, here's where i downloaded it: Sprite zero. it's a German site, but i am pretty sure anyone can manage knowing where the download links are.

how can i be purple?

2008-09-29T22:08:00.007+09:00

i am going to list down my exact exact exact thoughts right now. this is probably going to be emo, just to warn. because i think laying these down would help me ease up.

1. ?

i am in total question mark when asked what i want to do. I DO NOT KNOW. some of my friends have their jobs already, of course not as RNs, but in the field of customer service. if you'd ask me if i want to enter that field too, i'd say with all honesty that 'yes' but solely because of the salary. i have a lot in mind of what to do with that salary. i want to help with house expenses, and buy things that i want. and because after 4 months of finishing NLE, i still belong to the unproductive category of this nation. BUT. i am torn with the next option of wanting to be a hospital volunteer. i can't just let my four years of college learning (+ 2 more months) slip through my mind. and what's the use of gaining license and not using it. plus, having trainings would allow me to enhance clinical skills, and be used for future employment, where ever it may be.

2. this, that, then that and this

i am such a lazy lazy lazy lazy lazy person. i just stay at home. watch tv, internet, sleep. THE IDEAL BUM LIFE IT IS. i have reasons why i don't want to pass my resume to both customer service company and hospital (as volunteer). (a.) i am lazy. i can't get up early and push myself to walk outside our house. (b.) my resume is nonsense. a piece of paper that just has no impact at all. i have no confidence with it because i don't know how to properly make one and no matter what i do, i was never an active student/citizen. damn. and what's more? i lack seminars and workshops. (c.) i don't know where to start (which sounds like reason a). (d.) i want to finish downloading a lot of things (which seems unending because every waking day there is another one waiting to be downloaded, and so how about the past ones? shit.)

3. look at them

my friends, my classmates they're heading to their paths. i am bothered because i am NOT bothered. like when they're saying and writing that they passed their resume here, there, all i can say is 'okay'. wait, since i wrote that i am bothered that i am not bothered, so probably i am bothered just for real. (damn, so confusing). okay, okay. rephrase. i think, I USED TO BE BOTHERED. because they had attended so many seminars and i haven't, they have passed their resumes and i haven't even created mine, and their life is going somewhere while mine is staying at home. which made me resort to just creating a reason that 'i am going nowhere, i'll wait till my sun shine towards a certain path' ---> so not good. and i offer that reason always when i hear their new stories ---> so so not good again.

4. blah

i don't want to ask anymore from my otousan, because every time i ask for something, he's just giving me nonstop list of qualms.complains.

5. not again
i'd want to go and do my own life alone. alone and independent of friends. yes, it's because of this.

6. i want to lose weight. LOL.

---> i think my prediction is wrong and this entry didn't sound emo at all.

it's not lupus

2008-09-28T01:41:00.004+09:00

house won an emmy!

best director for a drama series for greg yaitanes for the finale episode of season 4: house's head (spoilers!)

this is my most loved US medical-drama series. and i found that particular episode very superb. well, all their season-enders are really amazingly done. but then, not only their season-enders, i think all episodes of house are worth wasting an hour of your day for.

in this episode, house was struggling to swim through his temporary amnesia. and the way they created this episode was exemplary. and also giving credit to the very last episode of season 4. where the dear cut-through bitch did her goodbye. house's season enders are really to be praised.

the new season has already started but i haven't watched any episodes yet. it's very intriguing to know what will become of wilson and house's friendship. i hope i can find somewhere to download it.

i am looking forward to all the sarcasm and the medical cases.

pictures grabbed from house facebook.

reincarnate

2008-09-27T18:12:00.003+09:00

yay! i am slowly improving my photoshop skills. yay! XD

but i am still doomed. still can't find where on this hard drive has the FANDOM folder lost itself. so i guess, i'll have to start downloading all over again. T__T tragic but true. no where else to go.

don't want

2008-09-26T23:42:00.002+09:00

i think i am cursed. this fangirling thing is cursed. because i don't know why, but my FANDOM folder was all of a sudden unseen. all of my other files were there except for the FANDOM folder. darn. downloading is such a crucial work. and that is a lot of download. damn.

emotional turbulence

2008-09-22T02:00:00.004+09:00

i don't want to be attached to any of you right now. i think i have lost myself a long time ago when i became a part of a group of friends, and solely just 'a part'. i can't find any sense of belonging to the people whom i call friends, that's why i don't want to see you or hear any stories from you. because i think i used to be someone else, before i became indulged into being a friend or being someone inside a friendship. somehow, i think i realized, it became tiring getting along as your friend. and it made me ponder, 'why is it such a burden for me to go when you're calling for a meet-up?', 'why am i literally just dragging myself to meet up all of you?'. i think i somehow lost interest in listening, and plainly just listening.

i am rotten inside. that's why i need to try and repair my self. i don't know when was the time that i left behind who i used to be. but i know, i changed. and i am in an unhealthy changed one now.

and even more, i am losing my esteem when i am with you and i hear your stories. i am becoming more and more indulged in self-pity. and that is so not healthy.

i have diagnosed myself (based on the manifestations written in the psych nursing book) as a schizoid. though not completely, but somewhat it mirrors what i feel and what is happening in me. emotionally unstable.

i don't want to drain myself in depression, but i think seeing anyone of you, would add oil to the fire. so forgive me. i breathed and faced the lowest and darkest days of my life alone. alone. so i think i should just go on and solve my internal conflict alone. but i reckon any one of you would know about this. you have lives; you had turned to different directions from where we used to face together and i need to accept that.

darn, internal emotional disturbance.

i switched my love to guido

2008-09-21T22:46:00.002+09:00

(i don't know why, but this afternoon, i had great initiative about writing something about the ateneo-la salle game, but right now, i just lost the interest .)

okay just some things about the game..

i watched it, though i had nothing to do with both teams, it's just that, though i had said that i will not cheer again for ateneo, i am still rooting for them over la salle. jai had a good game, might be even one of his greatest (but idk, i didn't follow most of ateneo's game this season.) then, klaire was featured as face of the game (something like that) and was introduced with the last name reyes and jai's wife. so that's it. just wanted to blog about that. (what the heck?)

............................

i am excited for ryusei no kizuna.

can't wait for ryo- nino (and erika toda). :)

XD

2008-09-20T03:16:00.003+09:00

i think this is something cool. we owe this smiley to this man. (click the smiling thing!)

:-)

i am a few hours late though in celebrating it's birthday.

anyway, happy birthday :-) !! you're older than me. haha.

can't get enough of your rants, darn

2008-09-19T00:16:00.004+09:00

i have to ready my purse (and find a job, in that case) because the DV guy won. (and what do i care about people who does not agree.. go create your own award-giving program. lol)

57th television drama academy awards best supporting actor.

rainbow report 01

2008-09-12T23:52:00.009+09:00

NEWS's happy birthday video is sooo white. it's so difficult seeing them. LOL. but for real, the background is white and they're wearing white. i didn't like it as much as i liked the weeeeek pv. (blame it on the too-much-white idea..)

nonetheless, i think it was still a fun pv.

yamapi, are you looking for trouble and wanting to follow the roads of kusano and uchi?

i'm definitely buying this monopoly news version if this comes out in the philippine market.

massu as his usual self
(let's try to ignore koyashige for this massu-burger series)

yamapi, trying to attack massu's precious burger

massu: ...

massu: eh?!

massu: wait a minute?!!

massu: nice try yamashita.. nice try. but food is equals to mine..

koyama and shige trying their go at the liquor.
(this is such a 'drunkard news' video. calling mr. kitagawa!!)

oh.. that step is so reminiscent of cherish days.. aww

but ofcourse. rainbows.
(we can never disregard that.)

stolen from someone else's blog

2008-09-11T19:22:00.002+09:00

The Rules:
1. Write something about 15 different people.
2. You can NOT say who they are.
3. If someone asks you which one is about them, you can NOT tell.

1. i don't think i'd want to see you anytime soon. i'm still searching for me.

2. nope, i'm not interested to hear your bundle of stories.

3. libre!!! sumesweldo hindi nanlilibre. che

4. you know, there's life outside being a fan of your hailed idol. duh.

5. go loose it. i don't care anymore and i think i'll stop caring for you and the others for a while more. i have long been uninterested with your nonstop stories about your bf. i missed who you used to be. and how we used to be. i don't think i'd want to see or hear anything from you anytime soon.

6. you sutil little girl. you still don't know how to talk properly, so don't go pushing buttons you're not supposed to push. (my downloads!!!!)

7. where on earth are you?

8. it's okay. there are also upsides of being single. i hope you'll recover soon.

9. aishiteru. news wa kanojo honto ni desu ka? demo, whatever it may be, atashiwa suki da you. eien ni.

10. happy bassday...

11. i still don't know when i'll be able to talk to you normally again. hopefully, soon. but i'm too unpredictable and ma-pride to put that into action.

12. i'm so sorry. i can't reply to your message because i'm in a intrapesonal conflict, and most particularly i don't want to hear stories about that certain aspect of people.

13. yeah, you deserve more than someone who can't even say a simple thank you.

14. forever and ever, i'll be thankful for your listening. you're the only one who cared to listen.

15. why are you red? and your eyes are bulging. LOL.

the word tarmac was popular

2008-09-09T21:34:00.003+09:00

I am a hero.
I do what I believe is right.
I do what I believe is good.
I fight for justice.
I fight for freedom.
I am a hero.
In a big way, in a small way.
In my own way.
I am a hero.
I am Ninoy.

iamninoy.com

sky key

2008-09-07T01:04:00.003+09:00

yep. i am still alive.

and because i am a victim of total intra and interpersonal chaos, i think i somehow changed from what i used to be. woah.

well, anyway, i refused to have access to a computer nor to an internet for more than six weeks i think. so the rumor of ryo having a real-life girlfriend didn't struck me much.

damn. i am definitely losing grip of japan fandom (and of a lot of other things).

but i refuse to turn my back. fandom is the only thing that made me happy. then it was taken away from me. so probably i am in my recovery period right now. and i am hoping i'll still be able to make fandom as my only happy thing. (yes, i have a very shitty, dull and sad real life. sad but true.)

so ryo has a real-life girlfriend huh?

anyway, i hope from this day forward i can return to my previous self. i know it wasn't healthy, but i was contented with the happiness japan fandom provides during those days. i want to go back that way.

drunk and swollen catching shit

2008-08-06T22:37:00.003+09:00

i hope there will come a day that i'll get tired of giving symbolisms.

yes, i was never brave enough. to speak. to cry in front of others.

will likely to cause significant changes.

these past few weeks, i had reasons why i wanted to badly get out of the country.
1. increasing fare and oil prices.
2. i am broke
3. japan
4. joligs

your purpose is to be the purpose

2008-08-04T12:20:00.001+09:00

i am getting addicted in making gif.

this is an inspirational one.

:)

shingo-san, mite, mite

2008-08-01T14:45:00.002+09:00

this is my very first created gif. bow. (baka! baka! baka!)

LOLLL

farther then further

2008-07-31T22:57:00.004+09:00

ym status message: how's pluto?
mu: pluto's fine
mu: ehhe
me: yeah i think so (too)
me: it's so evident

_____________________

pluto, which is 5,763,920,000 km away from earth (six ten-thousanths of a light year away (0.0006), is how far you seem to be.
_____________________

"you're afraid that if you'll tell how you feel you'll be pushed away further."

yes.

yes...

practice makes the world go round

2008-07-28T22:06:00.003+09:00

because i am such a failure. i only learned the wonders of photoshop at this point. (damn. fail)

so this was my very first product.

wtf. it's so... plain.

night and day, night and night away

2008-07-23T11:06:00.006+09:00

i have my latest addiction in the person of hayami mocomichi. okay call me whatever, but this guy is uh.

i saw him initially in densha otoko. then, liked him in gokusen2, but unfortunately he didn't stay etched in my mind (too je-focused those days). after that, i also saw him in you're under arrest but i didn't realize that the tall guy from gokusen2 was the same mechanic dude of you're under arrest. okay, i'm too late to discover this hot (hot, hot, hot) actor. he nailed it as tenjo night, hands down. because 1.) he made me cry; 2.) he basically acts good; and 3.) it can't be helped, tenjo night fits him oh so well.

and with this addiction, i'm gonna go follow moco's doramas and dig over his past ones as well.

oh well. tenjo night won my heart.

milk with sedative please

2008-07-23T10:42:00.004+09:00

i cannot be more happy. THIS is what you call happiness. it is confirmed, oh thank you dear God.

this season's drama has just started and next season's drama is being advertised this early.

DAMN. NINOMIYA AND RYO IN ONE DRAMA.
I AM IN UNEXPLAINED GLEE.

this is like shouhei and sousuke in a kurosagi cosplay. or yamada taro and asou haruto dancing daite senorita. DAMN. i really don't want to rush time, because that would be disrespect to yamashita. but, i can't wait for the flooding of ads and CMs. AND RYO ACTING AGAIN.

(and i'd be way way happier because there aren't any ____ ____ fans who'll make my blood rise.)

shouhei: eh?!!
sousuke: *spank*
shouhei: EHHH?!!!
sousuke: *slap*
shouhei: EHHHHHHHHHHHHHH????!!!!
sousuke: *kicksss*

YEAH. THIS IS FANTASTIC.

it's 10am and i haven't slept since waking up at 3 pm yesterday. and this aggravated my wakefulness.

daite daite senorita, tsuyoku tsuyoku tsuyoku hanasanai de

okaeri, sweet home

2008-07-21T02:48:00.003+09:00

zettai kareshi

i cried a lot. considering that i am not such a crybaby at doramas. but this made me cry. i was crying half of episode 10 and 11. damn, and even until now, i feel really down with the drama's ending. damn. DAMN.

i just can't get over it.

i love mizushima hiro and i know that night is a robot, but i just can't help cheering for night. and i have no qualms to aibu saki's acting, i think she did good. mocomichi is mucho love. oh my. i think he fits the character of tenjo night really well (that opinion was not blinded by his ikemen-ness.)

okaeriiii.. sweet home kaeru basho ai wo arigatouuu

******************

okay, i think i need to list the dramas that made me cry:
1. ichi rittoru no namida
2. beautiful life
3. iryu
4. last friends
5. zettai kareshi

only 5. haha

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extreme make over: home edition makes me drool again and again and again, because interior decorating is one of my secret dreams and a beautifully furnished home is my frustration since forever. damn.

i mean, just spare me this sink and i'll be in total ecstasy.

and this is one BIG DREAM..

tenjo night

2008-07-20T06:23:00.003+09:00

damn. i cried a lot for zettai kareshi. damn.

i saw orchard a while back

2008-07-19T08:25:00.002+09:00

i haven't slept and it's already 7.25 am. yes, i was awake the whole night and until this time. but i'm still not sleepy. I AM HUNGRY. LOLLL. i am going to cook something for now, then resume my zettai kareshi watching. i want to dl iryu2, but i have no hard drive space, crap.

why am i not sleepy yet? damn. i think i am thinking too much. (and results are coming near, DAMN.)

okay, i'll cook now.

^^,

i am brainless! *oh, sh.t

2008-07-18T23:41:00.001+09:00

ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS: No.
ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law.